Guest opinion: A mother’s enduring presence

Our yard never had a lawn.  Instead, it had six boys and a…

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On a recent road trip to Manatee Springs State Park while stopping for gas, I smiled to think about my mother. 

The service station restroom had a dispenser for soap, which came out green and silky, but had a sharp lemon-peppery smell, just like the bar of Ivory soap in my childhood home.

My five brothers, two sisters, and I had always to wash our hands before dinner,  and my mother would inspect all 16 of them, invariably flagging mine which still had dirt under the nails from playing in the prairie. She’d take me to the sink and hold one hand under the tap and rub the slippery bar across the tops of my fingers, a ticklish but warm feeling with her own hand underneath mine.  

Same with the smell of marigolds, among her favorite flowers.  As pretty as any other orange colored blossom, but with an earthy, musky fragrance, and, most importantly, an affordable price tag.  Once or twice a year, she would buy a flat of marigolds for planting in the yard when she had a spare half hour.

Our yard never had a lawn.  Instead, it had six boys and a dog, and a rectangle of dirt scoured from running bases in our makeshift ball field, punctuated, especially in the spring, by holes dug by Cleopatra, the stout family beagle.

It made for a rough picture out her kitchen window, which Mom would try to pretty up with a patch of marigolds, and we would tiptoe around them for a full day, maybe two, in deference and obedience,  but which was inevitably obliterated from someone overrunning third base, or the hard skid of a bicycle.

Indeed,  the nose triggers so many mom memories: oxtail soup simmering on the stove; the iron-like smell of melting snow on the back steps when she helped me take off my boots and leggings; Jean Nate perfume; scorched cotton from her marathon ironing sessions in the basement.

Most of all, it was the scent of fresh hay.  It was Mom’s idea to drag the ping pong table outside at Christmas time and flip it sideways to make a stable in front of the picture window.  Dad was busy selling tile, so she paid old Joe Corbett to cut creche figures out of plywood with his jig saw, which she covered with stencils of Joseph and Mary and the three kings.  Dad bought a bale of hay some place on Saturday, which we spread on the roof and floor of the stable, which when layered with snow overnight, offered the sweetest smelling hiding place for a six-year-old, cozied between the baby Jesus and a plywood sheep.

But it’s a haunting sound, instead of a smell,  that has me lately remembering her through the fog of so many decades, at a time when our twilight years are electrified by our granddaughter, a 36-pound bolt of lightning who stays with us one night every week.

Now that she’s four and growing more resistant at naptime, I take a chair next to her bed and sing the lullabies I once sang to her mom.  After a while,  running low on both lyrics and energy, I scale it back to humming.   Initially, it has melody, but eventually it devolves to a 4-count metronomic chant, the beat on the final syllable:  hmm…hmm…hmm…HMM.  Repeated, but now lower.  Repeated, but now softer.  As easy and hypnotic as breathing.

And as my granddaughter finally falls asleep, I realize it was exactly the same “song” my mother invented half a century earlier, inspired partly by exhaustion, mostly by love for me and her seven other children.

And as long as I can hear and smell and love her back, she is with us, still, on Mother’s Day.


David McGrath teaches English at FSW in Punta Gorda and is author of SOUTH SIDERS. profmcgrath2004@yahoo.com

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